I think that I should be able to spend the rest of the day in my nice cozy bed with the covers pulled over my head, reading a trash novel and listening to some depressing, crappy music like U2 or Bette Midler. Yes, I did put those two in the same category. All while listening to the rain splash the window. Candles would be nice too.

Happy Monday! Well, for a Monday.

Ok, maybe its not so happy. I have cramps and am bloated. Not a good way to start a busy week, but I will survive!

Anyways, had a great weekend. Friday night we went out and heard a GREAT live band and partied like rockstars! I dragged cranky Chesa out and I think she had a good time. Saturday morning we got up and went to the farmers market downtown then went and looked at some houses. I drove up to see hubby after that. Hubby and I were very romantic and went to the drive in to see Charlie's Angels 2 and Hollywood Homicide and made out like drunk teens. We didn't get out of bed on Sunday until about 1pm, except for when we took a bath. Now that was VERY nice!!!!! I drove back here yesterday afternoon, and Chesa and I went to look at some more houses. If you haven't gotten the drift yet, we are looking for a new place to live. Then we went grocery shopping, went home, did laundry, I made spaghetti (for later in week), cookies and dinner (mac&cheese). I then crashed.

All in all I had a good weekend!

Julia is a GREAT cook, which is one of the perks of her staying with me these days. That, and someone who understands how hard I work, and how much I give to my job, someone who sees all that we do. It means the world to me. Most folks don't understand how people that work 4 hours a day on air can be so worn out. Most people don't see the hours we spend at the station, doing all the other stuff we do, no one sees the community service element of our job (meeting the new manager of Tractor Supply, per press release, for future good standings). Most people don't see that we not only plan the concerts, promote the concert, attend the concert, talk to every FREAKIN' dumbasses that attends the concert, but we also bring the artist on stage, make sure to make them look good, keep security happy, it's alot to get done, and for no extra pay, and very little recognition. Thank you Julia, for understanding how much I try.
There will be no bloggin' from Chesa next week. I'm so busy that I have to schedule when to sleep. My days will begin around 4 ish, like usual and end around midnight everynight for 5 days. No sleep between, as it's rodeo time. Stand outside in the heat for 8 hours a day, talking to people, doing remotes to the station, being in our league. I'm not complaining, AT ALL, we're just going to be busy. THANK GOD FOR JULIA. She'll be my life saver this week. That and that bottle of whiskey in my cabinet. I have some rest time over the weekend. YAY and I'll be on remote later this morning. All because I love what I do.
thanks for listening

Thank you! To all that lifted my spirits with your encouraging words! I sincerely appreciate it.

Ok, enough with the sappy shit. I'm in a pretty good mood today. Last night I made dinner for Chesa and the hubby who came down. It was yummy delicious homemade pizzas....Mmmmmm, they were sooooo good! I'm a damn fine cook, ecspecially with italian food. Anyhoo, after dinner we went driving to look for a new casa to live in. Saw some cute places, hopefully somebody will call us back about one!!!

I'm taking Chesa to lunch today to help me try and sign a client, wish me luck.

Oh, I almost forgot! Chesa made the most incredible mint julups last night! If you've never had one, let me know and we will send you the recipe!

I can't believe it is already Wednesday. One positive thing I can say about this job is it sure makes time fly!!! I'm a little down today. We had a horrific sales meeting this morning, the thing with my hubby's family kind of exploded yesterday. Let's just say my letter didn't go over so well.... I'm not going to meet my sales goal for my first month here and that really pisses me off. I've been really pumped about this job and working like crazy and I still didn't get the job done. It makes me wonder if I have forgotten how to do this job (I've been out of sales for a few years). That actually scares the hell out of me since not only did I brag on myself before hired, but Chesa helped get me this job. I finally went to the gym last night and worked out, I sure wish I could see some benefits of that today, but instead I just have sore muscles. Maybe I'm PMSing, or maybe its the storms trying to blow in. I spent the entire morning going to see people that I thought would be ready to sign contracts. I only got to talk to one person!!! GRRRRRR!!!! Ok, thanks for letting me vent. I'm going to be in a good, positive mood NOW!!!! here we go.

Ah, what a weekend!

Lets start from the top, shall we? Friday night the boys picked us up and we were on our way. Well, this was after my boss insisted that I leave 30 minutes early with him and some other guys cause he needed to buy me a beer before the weekend. How could I resist? I didn't, that is why I slammed three beers in 45 minutes to keep up with the guys and to get out of there as quickly as possible. This might not seem like a lot, but I can't handle my liquor at all! So, I was in a very good mood when the boys got there, and of course they were running late. Who need to know that I was too? Nobody, because they were more so to make up for my lateness. Anyways, I packed in under 30 seconds and we were off to go pick up Chesa from work and hit the road! When we got to pick up Chesa she was VERY tired, possible because she only had about 4 hours of sleep within the past 72. She had been working her tail off. The trip down was pretty smooth, there was singing and drinking and making out and napping. When we got to Chesa's family house we completly crashed and woke up to her uncle making the best breakfast ever! Yummy! And you know you are in Texas when they bring out the GALLON jar of jalepenos at breakfast!!! EEEWWW!!! We then packed up yet again and did some sight seeing before heading from Ft. Worth to Dallas where the concert was. We did lunch with some old, great friends and then met up with them again at the concert for some tail gaiting. We also met some more GREAT AWESOME people that we will definitly be keeping contact with!!! The concert rocked, but it was actually the low point of the weekend! We drove back to Ft. Worth on Sunday to do some more sight seeing, shopping and eating. After all of that we headed back home and played Cut Throat Truth or Dare. They boys dropped us off and then Chesa and I stayed up until about midnight talking about just about everything.
Yesterday was my hubbys birthday, so I picked up some BBQ ribs down here, packed them in the cooler, picked up Chesa and headed to see him. He had a great bithday and he did get laid, very nicely if I do say so myself! YAY!!! We didn't leave Missouri until about 3:15am, so Chesa is seriously draggin ass today!
The other big thing in my life right now is my husbands Mother and sister (his only family) did not call him yesterday. My Mother in law decided last week that since I up and quit my job at the prominent company I was working for and pretty much spend 75% of my time away from my family that we should be disowned. So, last week she sent my husband a very nasty email explaining that she was ashamed of him for letting this happen and was so mad and disgusted that she did not want to see or speak to either on of us. Usually this would be a major YAY, because it gets us out of family gatherings and listening to her bitch, but since yesterday was my hubbys birthday he did kind of expect a phone call or something. He was sadly disappointed not to hear a peep out of his family. So, I wrote his Mother and Sister a very nasty email this morning. We'll see what the drama brings!!!!

There are not words to tell what a time we had this weekend. Ok, well, I will attempt to come up with a few!!! OH MY GOD, what a time we had. You have to understand our love for Pat Green. This is a man I've seen in concert of 50 times in the last 5 years. Julia, and her man are quickly building their numbers of concerts as well. This was a Dallas show, which isn't his home, but damn near close. To see near 15,000 people singing their hearts out to the songs that we know and love, it was amazing. And that was just a TINY part of the festivities. A bunch of us crazy fans, aka Greenheads, met to tail gate inthe middle of the afternoon on Saturday, after lunch with everyone a few hours before (that's jsut enough time to recover from the whiskey). It was hot, just the way I love Texas, but it was good. Julia will have more to tell, bless her little Northern heart. She's an honorary Texan, but it's hard to handle the heat when you're not used to it. Hell, I feel like I've been through a spa, minus the whole 2 day drunk thing. I think the best part of the weekend was the driving there and back. We took one vehicle, and that was such a good time to catch up on sleep, jokes, Cut Throat truth or dare (hee, hee) and just enjoy the whole roadtrip experience!!! I highly recommend a get-away to everyone!!
ok, list time...I can't help myself :D
Good times from the weekend, top 20
1. It was in Texas
2. having the people I love the most with me
3. Texas beer in constant supply
4. being cramped in the extended cab truck with my favorite cowboy
5. seeing my great family on Friday
6. waking up in Texas
7.seeing the places I love in Fort Worth.
8.being in a hotel with a slow elevator ( good for long kisses)
9. lunch with greenheads
10. Good whiskey
11. quick naps
12. tail gates and cold beer
13. THE CONCERT
14. making love in the shower in the wee hours of the morning
15. waking up in Texas AGAIN
16.lunch, shopping in Fort Worth
17. road side fruit stands
18. naps on the way home
19.pulling into my drive way after being gone
20. sitting on the hood of the truck with Julia, winding down from the weekend, smoking, and talking

T minus 45 minutes until we take off to Dallas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY! I'm so excited! We get to go visit Chesa's family, who are seriously the nicest people I have EVER met in my life! They go so far beyond southern hospitality and just immediatly invite you to join their awesome family! On Saturday we are going to the Smirnoff Center to see a rockin show including our favorite performer(Pat Green) as well as other talented Texas musicians(Roger Creager)! YAY!

In fact I'm so happy, I think I'll make a list.
Here are some reasons for my happiness..............
1. My boss is buying me a beer at 4:30pm
2. I get to see Chesa's family in about seven hours
3. We will have a five hour sleep fest/road trip
4. I have plenty of beer, ice, trash novels and red lipstick packed
5. Chesa and I have planned a craft activity for tomorrow morning (more on that later)
6. My hubby is going with and his b-day is on Monday, I have already wrapped all of his presents and he gets to open at least one everyday till his b-day starting today.
7. I get to spend time with a bunch of drunks in the sun tomorrow! I will be one of them.
8. I AM getting laid this weekend.
9. I got to flirt heavily with VERY cute, real cowboys last night. And I got to watch the bull riders stretch, trust me, its THAT good.
10.Mmmmm Bull riders.

I could go on and on, but those are the best for now!

Ya'll have a great weekend, be drunk, be loud, be lazy, be laid.

ok, this one couldn't wait. My pa'dner here at work is more shallow that most men. He's just a typical man, I suppose, and I'm about to quote him. No, I'm not man bashing, no I'm not a feminist, I just shake my head and nod to keep from throwing this lamp at him. This kind of talk doesn't go on the air, just know that.
This is the man that grabs the boobs of the weather girls on tv, and this morning, somehow we got on the subject of his current "sqeeze". He's draggin' his feet, and I'm figuring it's just cause he's a guy, right? Come to find out, and I do quote "she's got surprisingly nice hooters, but she doesn't cook, and she doesn't suck d*ck. What was I thinking?!?!?" and again, I quote, "every guy wants a little slut in their relationship. But just to him. You girls do the maintenence (sp?) and we'll take out the trash."
I see now why I remain single. And dont' think he's not a nice guy, cause he is. He's even a southern guy, but I guess if this is the general thougth process........thank god for my nice boy. Then again, is this the way it turns out after a few years?......
No!! happy thoughts of texas :)

Well, I'm not sure about crotch fleas, but I would like to slap my boss......
Much excitment for me, for this weekend I get to go home, as in home home, TEXAS. I had to ask for Saturday off, no problem. I bought tickets to THE favorite artist of myself, Julia, her hubby, and my cowboy man, so the four of us are headed south on Friday evening. What joy abounds. We're staying with my family on Friday night in Fort Worth, then hightailing it over to Dallas for the tailgate and show on Saturday. Everything's organized, what the weather will be like, what to wear, bottles of water, blankets, in case we all pass out on the lawn, a hotel for Saturday night that isn't far away.....it's going to be really wonderful. It's so good for me to get back there, and to get to share it with Julia again, happiness just exudes from me today. That's why I don't really wish fleas on my boss, but I would like to make a point. My partner and I have been scheduled for 5 appreances between now and Friday afternoon. Now that might not seem like alot, but let's see......start the day at 4am, do a KICK ASS show, by 10 oclock, do all the other duties we get done, go to a remote for a couple of hours, talk to people, stand outside, look excited, take a break for a couple of hours, do another remote, and get to bed late, just to do it again the next day. I LOVE MY JOB!!! I'm just going to be dead dog tired on Friday afternoon when we leave. NAP TIME for Chesa!!
I hope I can sit still for the next couple of days.

Today's Blessing

May the fleas of a thousand Afghan camels infest the crotch of the person who tries to fuck up your day, and may his arms be too short to scratch it. Amen.

Happy Monday!

I thought of a hundred great posts last night staring at the ceiling trying to get to sleep. Can I remember any of them? NO!!!!

Anyways, it was a lovely birthday weekend. Friday I went out to dinner with my best pals and headed home very early to collect as much sleep as possible! On Saturday my inlaws had a lovely pool side hawaiian feast for me! It was very nice, but again, was home by 10pm. I sat up for a little while with Chesa and her man watching a Robin Williams special. On Sunday I sat on my ass in the sun and drank beer with the hubby. All in all it was a very relaxing weekend and I fully enjoyed it! I'm headed home again tonight because my ex-coworkers are bringing me cake and beer. Who could pass that up?! Not this birthday girl.

So much to get done. Getting ready for Julia's b-day. What to get, where to eat..... It's Friday, and payday, and I get my first weekend off since January. YAY Some time to sleep, get some fishing time in, and celebrate the birthday all weekend. We're almost done with the EXTREME stress here at work. That's why me and my partner have the weekend off.
It's days like today that I like, lots to do, and looking good doing it. I feel better than I have in weeks, especially since I got into some old jeans, and a fun peach summertime shirt. Looking good!!!!! Throw in some peach lipgloss, and watch out radio land. Oh wait, they can't see me anyway.
Thinking about the conversation that Julia and I had the other day. "How did I get here?" I think I ask that every morning when I'm having coffee at some ungodly hour, looking around the place, and being thankful. Hell, I move about once a year, and it's hard to feel at home, to feel like everything's not temporary. I think I'm going to be in this town for a little while. The position I'm in is pretty well set for a while, and I'm good with that. I love what I do. That's why I do it. I'm good at what I do, again, that's why I do it. I have my puppy, Julia, my dearest friend, is happy in her new job, which makes me happy, because she's so close by these days. I have a great companion and cowboy man that's not far away, but not under my feet all the time. How did I get here? Lots of work, little sleep, and a pinch of good luck. I'm a Texan, in Arkansas, which is bad enough, working my ass off, as always, and I think that on this Friday, the sunshine is working it's magic. It's a good day.

Tomorrows my Birthday - duh duh duh duh duh duh
I'm gonna have a good time - dun dun dun dun dun duh
..................You get the point

Thats right folks, tomorrow I turn the big 25!!!! A quarter of a century old, doesn't that just sound like a LOT?????

I was having a discussion with Chesa just the other day about, do you ever ask yourself 'How did I get here?!' I've had a few of those moments lately! Asking myself how did I end up in Arkansas for chrissake?! How did I end up married?! Understand I'm not complaining about any of this, I just find it curious that this is where I am at 25 years of age. I think back to what my expectations were for myself by the time I was 25 when I was 16! Not exactly how I planned it! That is the understatement of the year!!!!

All in all, its been a great 25 years. I've made some major changes in my life the past month, and so far they are working out GREAT!!! My hubby came to see me last night and we went out for a nice easy dinner and took a drive through the country, went back to the house and, well......(yeah, I got me some lovin). It was a wonderful evening and my hubby sent me a beautiful email this morning about how he agrees that this was a very good decision for us and how much fun he had last night. He hasn't said a lot of those things for a few years now. It was a simple note that nearly brought me to tears. He has reminded me just how much I love him.

It should be a Happy Birthday indeed!

Am I moody? Well, ok I am having a tough time with work, trying to keep it together for a couple more weeks, despite the intense amount of pressure. Then throw in some personal stress, an extra 10 pounds that came from who knows where, and yeah, I guess I am moody. Here at work, we are graded for 12 weeks. In that time, we crunch to keep everything PERFECT, and for about 2 weeks after it's over, we have to make sure we're right on top of it as well. We're in the post Arbitron (grading) time now. It's not that the show sucks or that we are not trying to be good when we're not being graded, it's just that we don't have the boss breathing down our necks in that "off" period. We'll be up for a break soon, and I'm looking forward to it. Till then, I get to read blogs in between all this craziness. I did SO love the post from Sweet Jezebel, it still makes me laugh. Much to do today, but ooda-lally to being half way through the week!!!!

Good Morning! I'm alive!!! I know you all had to be wondering!

First of all I must give kudos where they are deserved....If you haven't read Sweet Jezebels post about breaking her vibrator, you must. It was the funniest fuckin thing I have read in a long ass time!!

In other news, the new job is going pretty well. There are a few bitches that work here, but name a place where there isn't, right? Chesa is doing pretty well. She is going through the pressure cooker here at work and all, so if she seems a bit moody, thats why.

I went home for the weekend, did a little booty call, you know. Got the goods... hee hee!

Last night Chesa took me on a drive of the town, we found a great lake to sit on and watch to world go by. Its tucked into the mountains and it was very beautiful and serene.

I know this post is really broken up and rambling, but I'm on a work community pc, so I'm just spitting out thoughts as quickly as possible!!!

Things aren't nearly as bad as they were on Friday, thankfully. Julia is well, kicking butt in her new position. Life is moving pretty fast, or maybe just moving so busy, that I'm just hanging on. More when there's time.....

Gee I'm glad it's raining
There's always something to be thankful for.
I'm awfully glad it's raining
Cause no one sees the tear drops when it pours.


And no one knows the thunder
As your heart breaks in the sky,
And they think those rainy nights
Cause that sad look in your eye.


Sure am glad it's raining.
The gentle river soothes the pain inside.
I'm glad the stars aren't shining.
This wounded warrior needs a place to hide.

Gee I'm glad it's raining.
I hope the morning sun won't come up soon.
As long as it keeps raining,
No one knows my heart broke right in two.


I thought I had found someone
I could count til the end.
What they wanted was a hero,
All I needed was a friend

Sure am glad it's raining.
I'm awfully glad it's raining

A rainy day here in AR, and I'm thankful. Did anyone see that movie, Ernest Goes to Camp. It was one of those cheasy 5th grade moves that you watched with all your friends. The above lyrics are from a song in that movie. I know the extreme tackiness that puts me in, to quote a Ernest Movie, but it's one of those things you remember. Rough day. Be glad when it's over.

AGHAGHAGH!!!!! It's already Wednesday!

Ok, so I started my new job, and its going pretty well. Basically I've been in training for the past few days and without a computer. That part has been driving me nuts! The first bonus check I get is going for a laptop for ME!!!!!! I'm actaully home in Missouri tomight spending some time with the huibby. Things are good. I did lay in bed on Monday night by myself and say to myself, Did I actually leave a comfy, cushy, well paid, secure job where I hardly had to do any work at all? To come to a place where the negative environemnt is trying to take over, over an hour from my home, my kids and my hubby in a place I don't know at all? Yes, I did and thats OK (I sound like Stuart Smalley). I just don't want to live with any regrets. I knew when I heard about this job that it has a lot of potentiol, it would be a challenge, but if I worked my ass off for it it would be worth it. Well, here I go!!!!

Joe, and T-Bone, I just want to say thanks for your encouraging words. It means so much to get support from unexpected places, ecspecially at a time like this.

ps. sorry if this post has a hundred greammer and spelling errors, I'm having a hard time seeing the screen. Ok, I'm going to go talk the hubby into having some more sex before I have to drive back tonight...Later, ya'll!!!!

With a few extra minutes in my day, how to spend it? Well, bloggin' of course. Meeting in half an hour, for the simple reason to remind me of how inadaquate I am at what I do, then be reminded that am the only woman in the market doing this, and there's no chance of getting better. Then I'll bum a smoke off of someone lingering outside the buliding, just to release the urge to choke the boss. This is a weekly occurance, so I'm getting pretty good at just staring blankly in the general direction of the talker. Julia is doing well, I think that she sees some of the potential that lies before her. She's in a different department, so she'll have a different boss to find her short comings. "Good Luck Buster, she's good!"

OO-DA-LALLY!!! We lived through the weekend. Made the singing, made the formal dinner, got some sleep, got to see my moma, Julia was there, it was great! Speaking of Julia, she's here in my town, getting ready for her new job. I'm not sure if she'll make it to post today. Wish her luck, she's pretty excited about her new venture!!!
I'm really happy for her, and there's too much on my mind to do otherwise. Here's to a good Monday.....