Oh the weather outside is frightful.....
ok, well, not frightful so much, but there's snow everywhere. You have to understand that I didn't spend my winters as a child playing in the snow, and building snowmen, and fun things like that, it never really gets too cold down Texas way. We see a little ice now and then, some cool temperatures, things like that, but nothing to get too excited about. No big deal. I did finally see some substantial frozen substances in college, when we traveled with a team, singing across the country. We were in South Dakota, and it had snowed while we all slept in the van. We woke to quiet a site. I was 19, and was dying to get out and play in it. Unfortunately, we were in a hurry, so I watched it for hours.
That's pathetic. Maybe more pathetic than that, is the fact that I went sledding for the first time in my life this weekend. I know, the first time, you say??? Yes. There's about 8 inches of snow on the ground, and I never knew the joy of a sled tied to the back of my Jeep, and a car hood tied to the back of a farm truck. I laughed so hard yesterday, my ribs hurt. Unfortunately, that's not all the hurts today, but it was well worth it. Julia and her family were there, my Cowboy man, and his sis, plus some buddies of his. You can cover a lot of snow on 80 acres. Nothing but us, the occasional pond, a few trees...Oh and the fence, but we didn't break any bones. My Jeep did great, as it was her first big go round as well. It seems that a lot is going on, and yet, it's relatively quiet. With the snow, I have they crazy urge to bake cookies. AHGAHG what the hell is that. Folks around here don't mind, as they all have traces of powdered sugar on their fingers. OH my disposition has changed greatly. I am so happy these days. I laugh, my personality is back, and I've slept for nigh on three days. I eat normal, sleep more than a few hours at a time...in other words, I don't work my job any longer. WHOOHOOOO. It was tough the first few days, to hear this radio show that I had worked so hard on, that my very blood and sweat was in, to flip on the radio, and hear how horrible it had become. But after a few days of being normal, and being truely happy again, I look ahead. There are great things to come, I just know it. I've thought alot about what I want to do now, and for the first time in my damn life, it's ok not to know. I'm going to make a few bucks to pay the bills, enjoy the Christmas season, and that's ok. For serious over-acheievers, like myself, this takes a lot. But I'm doing quiet well with it, and am thankful for the loss of very unsightly bags under my eyes all the time. For now, it's uncertain what tomorrow holds, but that's the best part. Until then, have some cocoa, and Christmas cookies. ( I know, it's like some weird version of It's a Wonderful Life)

Happy Holidays